Two weeks ago I was sitting at my desk and I couldn’t believe how miserable I felt inside. I had just gone to lunch earlier in that week with my other half and he did his best comfort me and give me encouraging words. He saw the toll that my current job was taking on me. It wasn’t that I was unhappy with the work, I was unhappy with management and the owner of the company I was working for. The owner was very strict, very demanding, and lacked a lot of respect for his employees. I committed myself to my job and being of a great assistance to his company. I saw that the harder I worked the more that hard work went unappreciated. I found myself over worked, worn out, and drained. There were some days that I’d have to walk out and just take a walk on my break to avoid letting him and others in the office see my tears. I knew that my current work environment just wasn’t for me. It was robbing me of the joy and happiness that I was used to. I believe in radiating happiness and sharing my joy with others. So being in an environment that took away from who I was daily was draining.
Wednesday night I got ready for bed thinking when is the right time to throw the towel in? When is the right time to stop what you’re doing and walk away from something if it no longer serves you or your life purpose? That next morning (Thursday) I walked into the office, sat down, and had no desire to be there. The negative energy and presence in the office was stronger than they ever had been. I sat down at my desk and I hadn’t been in the office for more than an hour before the owner walked in demanding the impossible while hovering over my desk micromanaging me. There was a point when he told me I shouldn’t have to talk to him and ask him questions. He told me that I should have enough common sense to know what to do and how to do it because he was tired of people coming to him asking him questions. I did my best to explain to him I’d rather ask questions to be sure I am doing things correctly rather than going off on my own and making mistakes. When the conversation got deeper he started to yell and scream at me. I sat at my desk holding my head down while holding back tears. Yes this was my job, and yes he was cutting me a pay check to do this job but how much should I take and tolerate? Does a paycheck require me to be abused and unhappy? I walked out of the office to take a break. It was then when I prayed silently, “God if this place isn’t for me please show me.” The more I repeated it the more I got the courage to walk back inside, grab my things and go. I did just that. I had no idea where my next paycheck would come from or how I’d pay my bills but I just didn’t stress that. Something inside of me trusted that God would protect me. I knew that somewhere, somehow, someway greater was ahead.
As I drove home for the day I reached out to all of the contacts that I knew and let them know I was looking for a job and if they knew or heard of anything to please let me know. After about an hour I got a phone call from a company that I had interviewed for during the time I was working for the company I had just walked away from. I then remembered that I had prayed that same prayer driving home from that interview. “God, if this company I’ve just interviewed with isn’t for me please show me.” When I received the call I knew that he was showing me. They had offered me the job in a better, healthier environment, and paying more money. I couldn’t believe how within three hours things had turned around for me. I believe that because I gave my all at the job I was working for despite how negative it was and I stayed dedicated no matter how it made me feel I was ushered right in to greater. I didn’t let the thoughts or feeling of defeat get me down. The whole time I worked in a negative atmosphere I kept believing that it would all pay off and it wouldn’t last forever. I also saw that I didn’t have to tolerate what I was given.
“We have to learn the difference of what you are given and what you own. What you are given by others you can get rid of at any moment.” –Amber Janae
The above quote is a quote from my new book A Woman’s Quest to Self-Love. What you are given from others you do not own. You can give it back or refuse to accept it at any given time. The day I quit my job was the day I had given all of what I was given during the course and time of my employment with the company. I knew my worth and I didn’t sacrifice my worth and value for a paycheck. I knew when to throw the towel in, I knew my worth and that I was more valuable than what I was accepting and tolerating. My message to you is know your worth, know that you are valuable. If you do not know and receive that, you’ll tolerate all of the things in life that are sent your way in hopes of tearing you down. You have to have faith, you have to trust your gut instincts when they tell you When to Throw The Towel In!
In relationships, personal or professional, jobs, you have to know when it’s worth it to stay and when it’s worth it to walk away. Stay true to yourself and know that no matter what the situation or circumstances you do not have to tolerate mistreatment. Know When To Throw The Towel In!!!
Be Inspired. Be Encouraged. Be Blessed.